oh well.. just went to Friendster again... it suddenly came alive again cos my training pals were pretty enthu about it.. so oh well... viewed a lot of friends' friends whom i also knew and wow... people really changed a lot over the years... the girls got prettier, smarter, more sought after and i'm like thinking.. why am i still stuck here?! stagnant.. in terms of looks, weight, academic achievements... pretty distressing though i really dun want to put down all my other experiences and memories as totally futile but hmm.. guess either way, we're all losing out on some things... so now in a way.. i'm really looking forward to my JET being approved and then i'll be able to go out and enrich myself too.. grass is always greener at the other side... i may miss home.. but after the malaysia incident.. i really think i've lost my connection with the family.. the sad thing is that.. for the others.. they usually have a parent to blame for.. me? my parents are really the best that i can get... it's just that i've appreciated them too late and now the feeling is all funny.. it was an innocent relationship all gone wrong... and it's hard to turn back the clock now...
so oh well... it's my fault...
i feel inspired to change myself now.. *though i dun think that will last long.. * bleah..