~Frustrations~

Today is really the most unlucky day for me... if my life hadn't already sounded very sad to you by now.. well.. today is perhaps the ultimate... arranged to watch a movie with my fren in the evening today.. looking at today's work schedule, i thought there were only two "events" on the agenda.. I thought i would be free, hanging around to wait for registration to come in... Boy... that was the greatest mistake of my life... pairs started coming in to register.. i didnt minded that.. but then they had to stay and chat.. and ask me tons of questions that me couldnt answer... in the end, they got me stressed and they got themselves full of replies such as.. "Well, i dont know.. would you mind if i go check with my colleague?" this whole process of diverting questions to and fro was really time-consuming and inefficient.. yeah.. people just started crowding in the room and disorder began.. sigh, that's why i hate myself for being so lousy and unprofessional.. still that was experience along the way.. i didn't mind.. in fact, it was pretty sweet to have an elderly japanese delegate come up to us and give us a little card to show her appreciation.. the other japanese delegate took a photo with us even...

BUT!!! the worse was yet to come.. country reports were still coming in even though the conference starts two days later? what are these people thinking about? that we are superwomen? we can go through ten rounds of filing each time they pass us the info? still gotta zap and staple and punch holes and answer calls that once again were beyond my capabilities... whoosh.. it's 6.15p.m. there are still work to be done but hey, the tickets are already bought.. no way i can back out man... yeah.. so i had to excuse myself to watch the movie and stupidly/kindly?! "volunteer" to come back after the movie to work somemore.. hey.. guilty conscience is a heavy burden on the heart.. plus all the inefficiencies i had been showing, it really didnt feel good to look so enjoy while my colleague was still at work, discussing for the event... yeah..went back and wow, the keys to the room were not there.. thought i was lucky and could skip OT.. that was only the beginning of my nightmare.. headed back to mrt after i sms my colleague to inform her of the situation.. well, she said "No! We should be the only ones allowed to draw the keys" blah and asked me to tell the counter and get the keys back.. headed back to Park Mall, tried to rush for this lift.. and voila.. my phone got squeezed out of its cover and guess where it dropped... into the hole of the lift doors.. yeah.. it couldn't have been more accurate than that.. before this, i had imagined the scenario many times.. at the mrt stations, what if my phone dropped onto the platform etc.. and yeah.. that scenario became reality just two hours ago.. had to call this lift technicians? gotta wait for one hour and pay 35 bucks.. money wasted for nothing.. ta ma de.. haha.. so in the end, my poor plight was intensified.. I had OT, and i had to pay $35 to retrieve my injured phone.. and if i was even more unlucky, i would need to service my phone... one consolation was.. i'm not the first one to be so unlucky.. apparently, somebody dropped his phone in the same position on Saturday.. darn suay for me to catch his ill fortune..

anyway... the most heart-breaking thing for me is.. this phone which i really treated like a baby.. for the past four months, it has never fallen to the ground, no scratches, no flaws created by me at all.. i had aimed to protect it till perfection, till my next phone.. haha.. wat a joke.. after it's first free fall in the lift to darkness realm basement, when i walked out of park mall.. i dunno how i held it.. it just slipped off my hand again and VOILA.. a second free fall to the hard concrete pavement.. yeah.. this time i could see and hear it scream almost.. (unlike the the lift attempt.. i didnt even hear a thud then)... after cursing and swearing, i tried to put the bruised phone in my bag and VOILA VOILA... I MISSED!!! yeah.. it was a third free fall... THAT WAS IT.. the last and final straw.. my heart broke with it.. all the scratches, cracks... imagine that was my heart, cranking at the instant it kissed the floor... yeah.. great sense of injustice overwhelmed me.. HOW ON EARTH COULD I BE SO UNLUCKY???

I'm really sad... it seems as if life has been a wasted effort... i'm totally down now... depressed just looking at my phone... sigh sigh... i wanna scream and scold and shout... guess that would be a good prez to have...