I went to visit my grandparents' tombs yesterday... it's an annual affair.. but up till now... i still dont know the way to go... every year, we'll some conflicts on which is the best way to reach these tombs.. somehow, we'll get lost for a moment before finding the correct path... the long winding roads... that's why i can never remember the directions... oh well.. there's always the rest of the family to guide me along... i didnt minded the long winding roads though... i like to stroll anyway... a little exercise is good for me too... well...
looking at my grandparents' photographs, I always try to re-construct their lives back then... working with faces is easier... although in the process of re-construction, they somehow become too distant from me... I felt as if i had "normalized" them such that in truth, we were no more than strangers... actually we are?! for years, communication barriers between me and my grandma had prevented us from reaching out to each other... i guess that's the only regret... not being able to understand her better and bond together while she was still aroound...
anyway, there's still many things to do in school.. i finally finished my last essay of the semester... not including the examinations... sigh of relief... this semester, i had been quite a bad working partner i guess... i'm late most of the time, uncontactable or not initiative enough.... i always hand in my parts after the deadlines... sigh.. guilty towards my friends... exams will be here pretty soon... that's all the more stressful... this semester is going to be over so soon... yucks... and soon it's loads of work and money-making...

yes... i need to materialize my dreams...