Hmm...guess i've been trying to replenish my sleep...dat's why i've been sleeping since yesterday's 7p.m. to 9a.m. this morning..... after lunch i had another round of nap session....... so really feel like a pig now.... sigh....... Have been really tied down by this deejay club cca that i joined... most of the people there are nice i guess... but somehow... at times i feel that i dun click with them... especially when they start rambling about oldies or other music? and have been assigned to various duties this few weeks till i'm like really exhausted... people have been helping me out (and at times i feel like a two-headed snake... because i havent really done a lot in truth and yet i grumble like crazy) hmm...i dunno... it's a wierd club and wierd situation that i'm in now... and sometimes i dislike myself for being so unable to take a stand for myself..... to speak up for myself and to say 'no' for myself.... why do i feel like such a weakling...
There was a murder in NUS this wednesday... another death (following leslie's on april fools') which shocked me (in a way)... but life still goes on... it's like a piece of mild news that passes by me... before there's time to absorb the reality of it... another day passes and it's time to put this event out of your mind... it's sad that a person has left for eternity but in silence... the world may never remember him again... it seems like another bubble out of a few billion has burst while the remaining continue to float around in the air waiting for their turn....... sometimes i think the snail is so much like a bubble.... they crawl around slowly... wat's a second to us is mabbe a few years to them... they get on with their own life and when they get stepped on...they just crack and die... like the sound of a bubble bursting...